Only 3 weeks?!?

It's hard to believe that it has only been three weeks since Jeromey has been gone.  It sure feels like longer than that!  I have been taking it day by day and as I've already mentioned some days are a little harder than others.  I do have to admit there were 2 tough days last week.  With Jeromey gone, all our small problems or unexpected events seem to be a lot bigger.  I had some issues come up at the house.  I sent Jeromey a text to let him know what was going on as I'm freaking out and having a meltdown because I don't know what to do.  He was able to make one of the 3 phone calls I had to make to help me out.  Thank God!  I was stressing and didn't know what I was going to do. He is my best friend and is very good at helping me relax when I get stressed about something.  He called and we talked and got everything figured out.  I felt much better about the whole thing.  The more I think about it though, the more I dread the time coming up when he won't be so available.  What the heck am I going to do?!  I was expressing my concern to my aunt, and she said "easy, you'll call me".  It was then that I realized that although no one else will be able to comfort me the way my hubby does, I'm not alone. The best advice I have received thus far is "don't try and survive this alone".  So I now realize that even though its not the same, I have friends and family to rely on.  It is just so hard and you don't want to seem like a burden, and even though I know I'm not I can't help but feel that way.  Everyone has their own stuff to deal with, so sometimes its just easier to keep it to myself.  I do have to say, I am SO thankful that I got to know some other wives from Jeromey's old unit before he left. They are some amazing friends and for the ones that have been through it before, they are understanding when I am freaking out and need someone to talk to. So I know I have all the love and support I am going to need to get through and with stuff changing and things coming up I am going to need help more than ever.  I am truly blessed with amazing family AND friends who are supportive, available, and more than willing to help. 
     Jeromey is still very busy catching up on training.  I am still able to talk to him at least once a day.  That has made the last 3 weeks bearable.  He was able to have downtime to watch the Superbowl on Sunday so he was thankful for that!  I know his days start very early and his nights are pretty late so I think at the end of the month when he will have a break he is going to try and catch up on sleep!  This morning he said it was freezing up there, and since it was -5 here I'm sure it was.  I told him to stay warm because I know sometimes he has outdoor training to do.  I don't have a lot to share right now about what is going on with him because its a lot of the same, training, training and more training.  I am thrilled to wake up to his phone calls, even when they are at midnight.  I'm dreading the day when I won't be able to expect his phone calls and when they won't be daily.  That is when this is going to be the toughest I think.  I have this whole week off.  I am supposed to be on 2nd shift this week which is from 2pm-10:30pm.  My dad is watching Austin while I am on those shifts, but this week he had to go to Cincinnati for work.  I couldn't find anyone to switch shifts with me so I took vacation to stay with Austin and Alesia.  I could get used to being a stay at home mom!  :)  Dropping Austin off in the mornings, running errands during the day, lunch with girlfriends, picking him up from school.  That was what today consisted of at least.  I had lunch with a friend and it was wonderful to just sit and relax and talk for 2 hours and not have to rush off and be somewhere.  The best part is I have another lunch "date" with another friend later this week.  Again, I am so blessed with friends and family to keep me busy during this time when I would otherwise sit at home and feel sorry for myself, lol.  Hope everyone has a great week!
P.S. I just had to comment on the whole Christina Aguilera thing, personally I don't think it's that big of a deal.  I mean, as far as I'm not offended.  I can't imagine singing the National Anthem at the Superbowl! I imagine that she was all kinds of nervous, and personally under pressure I would have a hard time remembering all the lyrics, even if practiced repeatedly!  Just had to add my 2 cents to the latest celebrity gossip, lol.